Today is my twin's b'day but not my b'day?!

LOL.. everyone knows i've got a "twin bro.."
haha.. and today (18/1) is my twin brother's b'day :)
the most WU LIAO person in this world..
no one can compare the wu liao-ness with him.. besides his twin sis.. who izit? haha..

Well.. i know now is not 12am yet.. but sorry la.. tmr exam tau?
so i post it now.. wahaha.. at least i got heart to wish u earlier..

Mr Khor Wei Wen!!
Happy B'day to u..
hehe ^^ the baby potato that dun wanna confess that he's old liao.. hahahaha!!

-juz a la-me joke for u..-

wish that u'll be happy everyday..
and be as hardworking as a bee..
hehe.. and stay young and handsome..

Gambateh!! and ur existence is indeed our blessing ^^
May God continue to bless u and make u a blessing to others as well..

Happy lerh? haha.. XD
zadao.. i perasan-ing liao... -.-//

thank God for giving me such a great brother..
-the best fren-

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I'm very sad now.. maybe i dun show my sadness outwardly usually..
but my heart has broken...
i really dun understand why you juz love to comment so much..
well.. perhaps.. this is ur unchangeable characteristic...
or even it brings joy to u when u say smth bad abt ppl..
but let me tell u candidly.. i'm hurt T.T.. utterly..
ur words kill me! it's so pain... so pain..

okla.. if u tell bad things abt me u'll feel really happy..
maybe one day.. u hear ur frens telling bad things abt u..
will u like it? will u be happy?
maybe u dun mind.. but please bear it in ur mind..
not everyone likes u...
dun mind what others say abt her or him...
this is not a world that only u exist...
u cant juz say whatever u like..
well.. maybe u really hv many comments abt that particular person..
but can u juz keep in ur heart..
u dun hv to say out everything u think when it's not gonna built that person..

i'm really sad.. this is one of the reasons i wanna avoid u too..
i'm a person who cant really bear ppl talking bad abt me..
you can say that i'm not a DA FANG girl..
bcoz i really mind everything u say abt me..
if i dun care abt u.. i wun mind what u say abt me also..

u jatuhkan my maruah and u still think that you're always right..
i really hope u dun see this post..
bcoz i am really down..

very very sad.. :(
i hv got feeling one..
plz think b4 u say anything..
i dun want u to say smth bad abt other ppl..

I HATE this feeling so much!

well.. first first.. i'm kinda bu shuang now.. LOL..
guess what? it's so disgusting!!

juz now i felt an ant with my mouth..
why?
hoho.. the ant so nice.. i din welcome it and it was in my drink..
my goodness!!
the drink is like dark colour one.. so i could not see anything inside..
i drank it and all of the sudden!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I felt something solid in my mouth and it's very geli!
then i spit it out.. MY GOODNESS!! i saw an ant!!

U know what??
i really dunno why all the insects like me so much!
i found a cockroach in pan mee...
there's a fly in pan mee...
i found fly in chicken rice too..
and now.. what?
an ant in my drinks?

mayb bcoz i'm Flora..
no choice.. hv to face them..
i really dun like this ok?

my imagination is too excellent..
i keep on imagine that the legs of ant are in my mouth..
oh no!! help me!!
i cant help stop thinkin it!
it's so so so ewwwwwwww~!

ok.. now go to the title.. what feeling is that which makes me HATE it so much?
it's the feeling of being alone!
well.. i dun mind bein alone..
but not for being alone for dinner.. almost EVERY NIGHT..
i HATE it so much!
do u know hw does the food taste when nobody is eating with u?
it taste like u wun wanna eat food again!!

why? why you leave me alone?

i'm very lonely deep inside my heart without u..

I really feel like crying without u..
can u come back?
I miss u.. T.T..
I cant stop myself from crying when i say the words that i really mean it!

New phone..

well.. this is one of the pics that i took using my new "iphone".. but actually it's not real Iphone i guess.. it's called x-phone.. smth looked like iphone.. but the function is like worse than iphone of coz.. haha.. how's the pic? leng lui or not? LOL.. perasan!!!

the pic is me lo.. i juz dunno why.. many ppl asked me.. "u started working?"..
at least three ppl adi i think..
do i looked that "mature"??
i rmbr once my fren told me that i looked like kindergarten girl..
LOL.. so which is thre truth now?

how ppl sees me is not that imp..
but how God sees me is the most imp..

My Honey.. lovely mummy..

This post is specially dedicated to my mummy.. cik ainn..
hey.. mummy.. dun worry ya.. i will always be praying for u..
u will surely get well soon..
Gambateh ya!! ^^

take good care of urself..
rest more ya..

love u so much.. :)

love,
ur honey--> Flora Low

McNeil is the best

today, 7/1 is our dear principal, Miss Goh Hai Bee's birthday (Say Hai to the Bee.. hehe.. easier way to rmbr her beautiful name)..

All of a sudden, i had been caught by puan parimala (oh no.. i dunno how to spell her name XD) to sing birthday song.. zzz... A? Not la.. i think is suet yan.. our DGJ.. haha.. then mana tau when i was leading the sch singing birthday song, i din turn on the mic b4 i sang.. so.. too bad.. XP.. u guys r not blessed to hear my sweet and crying voice lu.. hehe.. wanna hear ppl singing song like crying or not??

nway.. indeed, it's our blessing to hv such a responsible and wonderful principal like her.. she truly did smth in my life.. haha.. wanna know the secret within me and miss Goh??

That's a long story.. but i'll cut it short since i'm kinda tired now... I planned to transfer to another mixed sch when i was form 2, and my determination was very strong till my mum cant do anything but to write a transfer letter to the jabatan..

i HATE girls sch at that point of time.. i hate seeing all the same gender.. it's juz so BORING.. ok?
u try la.. come from a mixed sch and now eyes open liao.. u hv to go to a uni-gender sch.. lol.. i'm a very bad girl la.. haha.. i aint as pure or as angel as i was in primary sch..

well.. i promised my mum not to start a relationship with any guys when i'm still studyin in secondary sch, that's the main reason my mum allowed me to transfer i guess.. and she knew that i HATE girls sch!!

ok.. continue the story.. MISS GOH called me to go into her room and she would like to talk to me PERSONALLY.. wow! what? my PRINCIPAL is gonna talked to me? well.. reminder, this happened when i wanna transfer.. so it's like when i was form2..

i still rmbr clearly that i entered her room with a heart that was deeply troubled and worried.. i dunno what will happen next and that time, i cant speak well using English.. i was so scared and i wondered i changed sch what to do with her? i know that she's the principal very well.. but i'm just a normal student at that moment.. why do she need to see me??

i saw her.. i didn't look directly into her eyes as if i had done smth very wrong.. but now think back.. i wasn't wrong actually, i wanna change sch or not is my right aft all.. ok ok.. come bck to that situation..

mayb many many of u dunno this fact abt me.. that's also the main reason why Ethan misunderstands me the last time i cried in church.. well.. i juz dunno why, i cant be scolded or even bein advised by people that are older than me.. if they do so, i will cry immediately.. i feel so guilty and stuff la.. i do suffer emotional insecurity.. i always feel that someone is gonna hurt me very much very soon.. bible says Love doesn't contain fear.. mayb i feel i'm not loved or bein hurt too much..

so.. continue with the story, miss Goh looked at me with a kind look as usual.. she spoke.. "Girl, i heard that u wanna transfer to another sch, may i know what's the reason?" i din tell the truth, but i told her honestly some other minor reasons that i wanna change sch..

she read my heart and asked me,"Are u sure these are the reasons u wanna change sch? i know what's ur major reason that u wanna change sch.. u feel bored with the sch?" hoho.. is she a principal or my counsellor i wondered at that time..

i cant stop my tears from running out from my eyes.. haha.. i told her the truth and she asked me few ques which required me to think. She said that many girls want to enter this sch so badly.. and why i wanna leave this sch and so on.. but i was as still as a stone.. i din change my mind.. bcoz i was sure that i would be goin other sch.. i juz wish to disappear in front of her asap while she was telling me all these.. i wanna hide from her so badly..

I rmbr she said the sch needs me.. i din treasure her words that time and i juz took it lightly.. coz i was thinking no point to keep such word when my decision had been made and the letter had given to jabatan.

anyway.... God closed the door for me to go to other sch.. it's obviously not His will for me to change sch.. i finally had no choice but to agree with God.. i told God.. "OK! U want me to stay in girls sch is it? oklo.. no prob, but please give me more guy frens and guy good frens, ok?"

well.. i'm not so sure whether God had hear me that time.. but now i'm sure.. God heard me clearly.. i think i'm such a bad child lo.. so naive and so on.. indeed, nowadays, my guy frens are actually more than girl frens.. can u beat that? a girls sch's student? what on earth is that right? hmmm.. and amazingly my best fren is a guy.. and everybody knows that.. LOL..

God, U had answered me.. i know that...

God is good indeed.. He not juz gives me what i asked.. He even gives me what i want in my heart.. i want some posts to gain some knowledge..

and God gives me so many posts.. till i think they're kinda too many..
look at my time table..
Mon- Prefect
Tues- Choir (conductor)
Wed- McNeil (captain)
Thur- Chinese class (haha.. not a post but hv to stay bck..)
Fri- CF (President)

Church
MIF vice-president
CDMIF secretary and ganti the vice-president since he has gone oversea..

so many things to do..
oh God.. i really need ur help.. if not.. i really hv no idea how to manage all these works..
SPM, piano, violin, driving some more..

my life is so packed!

so i dun think i will even hv the time to think of my future bf.. HA HA HA HA..
so if ppl ask my why u dun hv bf.. well.. not no ppl want me..
is i'm really BUSY! lol..

talking abt McNeil.. now baru follow topic.. GOOD~~
i feel Good~ nanananananana~
lol.. as captain went to hv meeting with sports tchers and of coz pn chang (PK koko)..
wow.. we discussed for so looooooong.. and hv so many things that i hv to tell my McNeil girls..
i was worrying at first.. but i rmbr God...
i prayed to God and asked help from God..
my heart was filled with peace aft all..

i saw students comin to the house meeting now..
my heart din feel the nervous actually...
i felt the excitement.. i wanna talk to them!!!

Ok.. Cik Murni started the meeting with few words..
and she annouced that i will the captain..
i'm pretty happy and thankful that moment..
coz i wanted to b the captain since the first time i attend house meeting..
is that cool? well.. juz something i wish to achieve la..

and i dunno how and why i can become..
all i can say it is by God's wonderful and uncomprehended grace and mercy..
first first we choose all the AJK and stuff...
then when i was giving the information,
students were quiet.. they really amazed me!!
thank God for keeping them quiet coz i really hv lost my voice T.T...

then come to the cheer part..
LOL.. i shouted till out of tune liao~
haha.. but i love their semangat.. it makes me feel semangat too!
Go! McNeil!

i like all the form 1.. arh~ my heart melted when i saw them..
i think if i see baby.. my heart will melt lagi Geng! as some of my frens know...
i love babies ^^

haha.. i heard their(McNeillians) laughter..
i enjoyed leading McNeil team..

my prayer is that all of them will work together..
win or lost comes next not the first..
the process is the thing.. we learn and love together in sch :)

i pray that God will also bless me with wisdom to know how to help them and lead them..
i can do nth without God..
i also pray that all the committees will work well together and enjoy their works ;)

God bless u.. thanks for reading.. hope u enjoy too ^^

Choice

U cant make the choice for others,
but u can make the choice for urselve,
not everyone u appreciate will appreciate you in return,
but u can appreciate everyone and no one can stop u from doing that..

btw.. my busy life starts...
it seems like without an end..
hopefully SPM ends FAST..
i dun really enjoy 2ndary sch life to b quite candid with u all..

haha.. i'm very looking forward to my mass comm... ^^

Forget to thank God for smth..

Well.. perhaps.. everyday we hv countless things that we can be thankful for..
but we tend to see things the negative way as if God is so kedekut..
God gave His life for us.. He gave His EVERYTHING for us.. what else can we ask for?

We hv oxygen, sunlight, cloud, frens, house, food, shoes, watch, clothes, CD, TV, computer, blog, eyes, legs, nose, ears, still alive.. and hv got so many many things else..

but do we say a THANK U to God?
or everyday u juz know how to say..
Why God is so unfair?
the girl is prettier?
the guy is so talented?
why am i so short?
why i dun hv jenama baju?

well.. if u think one think.. haha.. [read it in chinese]
how much God has given to u freely and we take them for granted??

it's time for us to wake up i guess..
hmmm.. i juz "woke up" too..

juz now i complain this and that in my heart..
but i forget that God has given me so much and God doesn't charge me.. T.T...
i'm so regret.. why am i being so naive?

i thought God has taken the three most important things in my life..
but actually He nvr.. because God wants me to realise that He is my everything b4 i can get the 3 most important things in my life..

sry.. bcoz it's too private..
so i cant tell u.. what's the 3 things that i want so badly..

God is so good.. indeed, God is good all the time..
God cannot be bad.. bcoz God is good..
haha.. am i repeating?

ho ho.. dunno is sick too much or too boring at home..
i joked to myself and laughed..
till i think i hv smth wrong only i stopped..
zadao.. i wonder is there anyone like me..
joke then sendiri laugh?? self-high.. zzz..

but indeed...
"A cheerful heart is good medicine,
but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."
Proverbs 17:22

so be cheerful when u're sick..
it really helps ^^

thanks for all the prayers..
May God repay u guys :)

take care.. emmanuel...
my prayer is that all my non-christian frens can come to know and accept the Lord asap :)
and MIF can be a place where more youth learn more abt God and fellowship together :D

SICK

I really really really hate SICK!!
I cough for almost 2 months i guess..
but now it's gettin worse.. T.T..
Hvin severe headache due to sore throat and influenza...

i cant move much.. if i juz like stand up and look down or even juz turning my head.. i can feel the pain!!! it's so painful that no words can describe how terrible i feel T.T...
juz camp bck from mif committees camp.. guess i din rest well this hols.. that's y la.. work some more la Flora.. now know la.. zzz...

edwin juz scolded me for dunno how to take good care of myself..
he scolds ppl very the funny...
he said if i still wanna go to sch and make myself so miserable.. he's gonna beat me.. i was speechless.. i hope my future bf wun say such thing to me la.. haha..

if i hv a bf in future.. i hope he ans me in this way..
"Honey, u'll be fine de.. i sayang sayang u sure ok liao.. love u so much o.. u sick i heart pain de.. take care ma.. but nvm... now u rest well well o.. guai guai o.. u guai guai sure fast recover de.. jia you o.. love you.. will pray for u o.. but u must eat medicine on time ya.. :) good girl.. "

ha ha ha ha.. i think i receive this msg sick also recover liao.. zzz...

well.. 2010 first post is sick.. what la u??
zadao.. =.=lll

okla.. cant write much.. head pain... dunno can go sch or not.. sob sob.. first day lerh!!!
whatever la.. zzz... hate sick.. T.T...

btw.. i dislike the titanic game.. will tell the reason other time..
goodnight..

Christmas

Christmas day ^^

Yeng or not? like F4 oh.. LOL..

Pameran? lol..

Perasan-ing

We were helping Davis to take some pics.. he posed till tidur liao.. haha..

Cute bear ^^

I'm very handsome.. haha.. (See his hair got red colour de..)

Snowflake and snowman..

Davis and i..

Neh.. we went to eat the dessert..

Haha.. i like this pic.. bcoz i can nvr take a pic of myself this way..

Photos time..

haha.. will upload some photos here to colour up my blog..

Christmas Eve 24th dec 2009

We hold the candles and sing silent night ^^

DD and i.. love ya DD~!

My Zai.. Heng Jing.. Good boy :)

Haha.. the best one always appears in the end.. lol.. dun u think he's en dau[handsome] with this hat? LOL.. He is good fren of mine who is very SS one..
btw, this is edwin..

23->24->25->...

well well.. haha.. i was havin lotzz of FUN these few days..
hmmm.. first first is on 23rd la.. haha.. i saw my pri sch fren - Kai Hong!!
first first he was like looking at me.. then suddenly je.. he asked,"U're Flora?"
I said,"U're Kai Hong?" LOL.. so funny lo..
coz that time i'm like kinda scared coz i alone taking all the public trans due to some reasons!!
but thank God la.. see.. God is so good.. made me meet bck my old fren-nya^^ LOL.. (mun li's style of talking)... zzz... okok.. then i went to mid valley alone la.. some more missed the chance to watch movie with my frens.. but they're watching feng yun la.. so nvm.. i ate at McD alone.. T.T... kesian kesian.. ha ha.. and Khai Mun saw me.. wow.. but.. too bad i din see him.. then some1 said i too short so cant see him.. =.=ll

we took a few pics there then went to pizza hut again.. LOL..
we did joke a lotsssssssssss....
but they all said i SS only.. zzz..
we went to church for christmas prac later on..

24th dec 09
ok.. finally.. come to Christmas eve of year 2009..
i guess i hv been waiting for this day to come even b4 i was borned.. huh?
well.. juz simply say smth to keep u awake XP..
kk.. went to watch AVATAR... yerr.. kinda disgusting.. i mean the avatar's look..
ha ha.. this movie is kinda long.. so start feeling sleepy especially middle part..
so i would say this movie is ok ok only..
then we went to old town lu..

wah.. then i rush to church.. mana tau..
nobody was there yet..
bai fei xin ji.. zzz..
白费心机，白色飞机~
well.. i juz simply created this line.. LOL.. nice?

nway.. christmas eve event started..
hmmm.. this time i was really nt familiar with all the steps except for the "Love our home"..
but thank God la.. still managed to rmbr them at last.. ^^

this time, nt as many ppl as last yr..
but thank God.. see some ppl found the Lord.. :) so happy o..
ok.. aft the event.. took pics with my frens again lo..

edwin wears hat very en dau o.. lol..
zadao.. jing yuan.. i din fall for edwin la..
i called his name so loudly that time is bcoz he is my good fren ^^

25th dec 2009
finally.. it's Christmas time ^^
8.30am.. the event started..
first time.. my frens and i performed violin.. well.. we're playing while ppl singing.. so cnt hear de la.. ha ha ha ha.. XD

aft the event.. zhi yi, wai kit, axel, yu xuan, zhan hui and i went to TS..
lol.. we took so many pics there coz still had plenty of time b4 the movie started..
later on.. Geng sen n Yin ying joined us too XD

wah.. for the first time man..
sitting the first row of the cinema.. so NEAR.. zzz..
watched CI LING; the treasure hunter..
wow.. COOL~ i like this movie.. nice...
even though i aint Jay's fan..
but this movie is seriously nice..
haha.. smth not so nice is that the ending part like horror movie.. zadao.. so scary..
nway.. lin zhi ling very pretty o.. lol..

aft the movie.. coz many of them hv to go bck liao..
but i still need to wait like till 7++pm..
so i went to pavilion with zhi yi..
haha.. we ate dessert! hmmm.. the dessert tasted good at first..
but dunno la.. mayb i dun really like too sweet de food.. so some part of the dessert i dun like..
but i enjoy the dessert nway... i believe it would hv b better if i order the zhi yi's one.. coz his dessert looks better and i guess taste better than mine too..
well.. nway, thanks to zhi yi.. coz i had nvr tried this kind of dessert b4.. it's new to me..
n this was my first time goin pavilion...
wow.. pavilion is like so big o.. and got so many restaurants..

indeed.. i enjoyed these few days XD

27th dec 09
well.. went to church lo.. btw.. i love goin to church ^^
sunday sch very nice.. haha..
then mif.. very nice also.. so funny when they singing the two tigers ^^

aft mif.. we haha... well.. only we know.. LOL.. ==
nth la.. juz membaiki the MBSOBA lo..
and did smth secret.. shh.. cnt tell.. till our mission is done ^^

at night went to KFC to celebrate Zhi Yi's b'day..
though is tmr.. but we still celebrate first..
but it's kinda weird.. coz i thought got ppl will prepare cake or smth..
hmmm.. but haha.. zhi yi's jokes r funny XD

had fun time together with them.. they're all frenly :)
will upload some photos soon ^^